No matter how much I try to categorize and compartmentalize my life, there is emotional crossover at every juncture. My own behavior patterns tend to be the same for eating and exercise, work and play, relations and solitude. I slide up and down the emotional continuum from content to frustrated, and those patterns affect my behavior, making consistency — perhaps the one most important ingredient of success — difficult.
My own procrastination shocks me whenever it happens. Someone told me yesterday that I am a very self-aware person, and I am aware when I am procrastinating. My intuition screams at me get the ball rolling or there will be hell to pay, yet I sit on my metaphorical butt a little longer, until finally I am putting out the fire I started myself.
I’ve gotten so much better about this after years of learning firefighting skills that it’s rare that it happens anymore, and when it does, I am completely aware that it’s happening and ridiculously mad at myself when I once again find myself donning the big rubber boots.
In the same breath that I say, “I’ll do it later,” I can also bash someone else for causing multiple fires all over the place. As many of you know, I am starting a new endeavor (nope, can’t tell you yet….but soon….very, very soon I promise!) and I want to do it big. I mean, really big. Like start a whole new company, with real employees and everything. And I’ve been thinking a lot about the culture I want those employees to enjoy. And I want it to be an amazing place to work.
I’ve been a boss before and I know I can be demanding. I don’t see that changing any time soon. But I think it’s possible to be a boss who expects excellence and still create an environment that people want to come to every day, where they want to do their absolute best because the stress is fun, not scary. They are not always feeling like they will never do enough, or getting mixed signals, or being abused. I’ve had great bosses and I’ve had bosses that made you want to walk on eggshells. I want to be the kind of boss that brings out the best in people. And people can not be at their best if they’re constantly worried about making their boss mad.
I believe that planning and thinking ahead are a key component to this. And I believe it will be a challenge for me, because I am very much an “I’ll think about next week next week, let me get through today first — you know, like, let me get through this minute,” kind of person. If I’m going to create a beautiful environment for my employees to work in, I have to create an atmosphere of grace that’s free of the smoke of fires I created.
What about you? Comment below — do you procrastinate? Have you had bad bosses that stress you out? Who’s procrastination is worse — yours, or your bosses?